I'm back miaow

i want to get better. don't think in calories. don't hate my body. but i can't. i'm too weak. i'm alone in this.

I'm a pig.

A disgusting one. At 3 pm i ate 280 calories. Then I ate mcdonnalds: nuggets x6, 1/3 french potato, diet coke, sundae caramel regular. And know a small pizza.
Why am I binging so much?
I have to purge or do cardio soon. I want 100lb. 100lb. 100lb. In April, I'll starve, I'll fast. I'll be skinny.
I wanna cut myself. All this fat.

Piggy piggy

like 4000 calories today. i. wanna. purge. purge. purge.
i think i might start one of those days. i'm fat. and fatter. and uglier. i hate myself. my crush will never talk to me. because i'm fat. and fat. and ugly.
this is my plan:
1000 calories per day:
B:

•  Yoghurt 100k
• Weet Bix 52k
• 500ml agua

S:

• Mini Oreo's 100k
• Tomatoes 50k

L:

• Pita Bread 127k
• With-Fresh Cheese 80k -Ham 30k -Humus 50k

D:

• 1/2 of the meal= 1/2 calories.
• Tomato 50k or Lettuce 20k

Drinks:

• Water - Half juice (70k) with water -Vitamin Water 90k

I'll be perfect. In the worst of the cases I'll eat 1009 calories :D

I'm a bad person

Agai, fat.

No more.

I don't wanna feel fat.
I don't want more guilty.
Bipolar ON.

Fat

I. DON'T. WANT. FOOD
I'M. NOT. HUNGRY
I'M. OK. DON'T. WORRY
fuckin' fat.
fuckin' food.
fuckin' fat.
i'll be perfect.

Intake 2.8.2012

B:
Yogurt light FL 60 k
Cereal 76 k
Kinder bueno 250 k
Orange juice 80 k
L:
Turkey Ham with integral bread 170 k
Grapes 40 k
Mini cupcake 100 k
TimTam 117k
D:


Estimated total: 890

I wanna forget you. Fucking food. I am a cow because of you. I hate myself. I bought lots of razors. I just wanna cut all this fat out. Fat. Fat. Fat. Fat.
Today... three times I've been called fat.